I don’t know why it bothers me but it really really does. I know it probably means nothing but there’s a part of me that keeps thinking and thinking about it and it’s making me more miserable by the second. It makes me feel like I’m not good enough, I’m just here to fill a void and be used for some sick form of pleasure because I’m just such an easy target to be used. I don’t want to be that girl. I want to be respected and loved for who I am and what I can bring to someone else as a person. I don’t want this to be just physical. And I tell myself that it’s not but I saw the look and I know exactly what it means because everyday I see that look on my own face. It scares me because I’m scared of something that I do myself and I can’t stop doing it. I don’t want this to be this way. I really fucking don’t.